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Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Wad lay ahead of my future..
Dear Diary, Well..Lets jus take it that im single.not offical.but i consider myself as single.. We have not been in contact 4 3 daes..so lets just put an end to it.aiya..i myself dont know why..guess..our rhsp dont seem to be heading anywhere..how i wish i cud just make all this stop..hur...ideal rhsp..we sud love ech other even more ech dae..n our bond gets even closer..haa..miss those chemistry close bonding n feelings all w my previous rhsp..its nice..we tend to share.care even more 4 ech other..both are devoted 2 ech other..u noe dat kind of feeling..mutual needs.. goshh..doesnt mean hs quiet hs not speaking..i miss all that..but i just dont feel that way w wan..haish..it need 2 hand 2 clap doesnt it? I dont wish 2 dream on a false hope.wait 4 him 2 change..waiting 4 him is lyk waiting in a drought.useless n dissapointing.. haha..mcm pena dengar kn.lol.. Saiful... i received ur letter..shall waet 4 u 2 give me Gota move on suria. .Got to be strong..I noe i can..  aw..swity heart pie!! haha..taDa! This guy..guess he You were such a surprise An unexpected gift Said I was pretty, and I believed it Not really used to all this attention  Cuz you send me flowers, when there's no occasion Yeah we talk for hours, you still wanna listen Won't hold it against me if I just need you to hold me tonight My mother always told me that you'd show up one day So scared to feel this way but love, I think I'm ready Our shadOw..nice tak?heh..  1st RefLecTioN  2nd ReflectioN..while he was bz lookinG 4 e right sHoe..haha    his my cutest accident.xP Over @ maRina Barrage.. "    we had our own fUn!xP Lastly @ e end of our date...  pS..Hope it cud get beta.. xOxo.. "LiFe waS Beautiful tHen I remember tHat tiMe I knew wHat waS HAPPINESS.. Let tHe meMory LiVe aGaiN" .
++ quoth Unknown at 9:52 PM Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Heartbreak
Dear Diary, Yesterday we went for a date. @ 1st wen i saw him,i dont why i was all so frustrated and full of anger.i juz haf e strong urge 2 force him 2 tell me e truth.i was dissapointed.its really2 thwarted.. how could he do this to me? how could he fornicate w dat gal yet he can still remain calm n hold my hands n say he loved me n all?? How could him?? haish.. im sooo hurt. Losing him, is never what i could thought off. .we went pS..it reminded me of our secind date that we went. e cinema.everything.. .i just miss n need him. e real munirwan dat i used to know n have. not this cruel cold guy dat im with. i really2 do misses e tym wen he is just himself..haish.. Wan.. how could you do such a thing to me? Y wouldn't you just let me go? Let me be free from all this? Why do you have to enter in my life in the first place?? why? It was really nice to have you as my guy. Before that girl step into our relationship.why did you go to her? So as you could have sex w her? Is dat the reason why you go to her? Because you could fornicate her all day long?? Y couldnt you respect my decision n just stay n wait?? Just because shes 2-3years younger then you? Age gap is smaller compared to me? Im still "fresh" n "narrow-minded"? That is why you decided to this to me? I understand if you leave me for that. BUT i CAN'T accept the fact y u have another gal BEHIND MY BACK! haish.. i shall continue again.. ive got to go for now. . "LiFe waS Beautiful tHen I remember tHat tiMe I knew wHat waS HAPPINESS.. Let tHe meMory LiVe aGaiN"
++ quoth Unknown at 4:25 PM Monday, January 19, 2009
Beautiful liar
Dear Diary, I cant stand it nimore.. ITz so hurting meeeee........arghh...im crying this pain. no1 cud undstnd n tell my pain.*sob2* hm.. how cud he ACT as if nothing as happened?? How cud u do dos cover-up? wads dat dey called it, conspiracy. U act. really put up an feign infront of me sudnt picture of guilt sud be written all over your face ironically ??but u dont. u seems to remain calm. pretending dat all dz is my fault. im down.der u are standing strong beneath me. . u tink ure so right and i dont the truth! E WHOLE AGONY OF TRUTH. .wad e heck. u pretend.Pretending. Listen. u Dont know how 2 lodge ur card well. .U dont noe ur game.Trying 2 put me as e victim.While u n dat slut were havin FUN behind my back. Fonicating ech other. OMG.lyk OMG. Dont tink i dont notice e changes in you wan. .Doesnt mean im quite, im not watching vigilantly..ure my guy.how cud i not notices? u thought i would cry lay down n die. .e knife is behind you.it take one 1 know one wan. . For now,i just play foolish along w ur game. .haha. .u'll come back 2 me.im sure u will. Till e time shes done w you. dont u come crying begging 2 me. .by that tym, itz ur turn 2 play my game. or perhaps @ dat tym i shall drive e gear. C if u cud keep up w me n take all e pain.supress it deep within ur heart n soul..do some soul-searching could you? im already as hurt..to add insult to my injury, u go on w her despite e fact she noe dat ure attached w ME.wads ur motive of doing this?? Is it FUN? dasar anak PLAYBOY Just lyk Mrs Doris Lee said,"TIme will heal my child". N yes its true. Im healing n picking maself up thru dz sticky mess. .wait till e tym u begin sobbing helplessly as you stood uncomfortably,words elude you. .it promised to be a beautiful disaster for you.. haishh.. For wadeva it is,im not going back 2 you. I had enuf. Enduring and patient. .Forgive me my dear if someday, i were 2 b as cruel as you. U started e game. This is not I wanted from e beginning n this is not i how i wished 2 end either.. Wish you all e best w ur loved one. DO remember that, Belief me dat sumday SHE will "LiFe waS Beautiful tHen I remember tHat tiMe I knew wHat waS HAPPINESS.. Let tHe meMory LiVe aGaiN"
++ quoth Unknown at 12:31 PM Friday, January 9, 2009
Everytink look so cleann
Dear diary.. Itz sure has been a very2 long tym since e laz tym i update maself w dz cyber world.. well tings have been a whole new world 4 me. Nightlife. wan. i tot i knew hym. im crashing. really crashing. i cant beleive u wud do such a ting 2 me. . juz hw cud u. nw. IM waiting 4 dat very dae. e confession. e story abt u. e real u. ahh.. if only u wud undstand hw i feel n read me lyk a book juz lyk hym. saiful. i guess he might be reading dz.. 2 SaiFuL: Im sorry i didnt reply 2 all of ur msges.. im 2 caught up w all dz rite nw.. 4 now lets juz remain dz waeee.... juz how cud he do diz..how cud he HAVE E HEART 2.. tkper2.i will let dz tings all dis happen. n wait 4 dat very moment 2 happen. i got 2 b strong.he will cum back 2 me juz lyk all of em. y do dey start 2 appericiate n treasure me wen im no longer theirs? oh well.. i guess. its fated 4 me 2 meet em 1st b4 i got e real hym. =) lyk muz said," U got 2 go through all e rotten apples 2 get e perfect apple which is rite @ e top of e tree" well.. i guess i got 2 agree.. itz beta 4 me 2 get hurt nw or ltr. i shall be strong. i must haf a clear conciouss.. ok finally he text me..sumtym i juz wana shout. or probably im shoutin n crying insyd but nobody listen. including hym. well i dont.i guess. lust? lolx. but i really2 love e helmet dat he gave me. e hugggsss make me wear hz clothes wen im cold..i miss dos tym bck in dos daes. .wen we witness e mesmerized scenery over @ marina barrage.itz jux omg 2 me. well.. i will be thinking of hym n dat moment weneva i go 2 marina barrage. its so wonderful.everytink was so perfect. how i wish i cud juz freeze e tym n not let all dz cuming ting 2 happen in e future. . haiz..yang2.. how cud u.. ='( i gota 2 b strong. . once lyk asyik(ma ex),:" dea gendang kite tari,kite gendang entah dea blh tari ke tk t.." haha.. asyik2.. oh hw mch i misses u! lolxs. among all my ex, e only n only 1 dat i really2 1 2 meet is hym. as 4 saiful i finally had e chance 2 c hym.even though we didnt had e chance 2 tok. .finally my heart n mind is @ ease. 2 had e chance 2 catch e glimpse of hym. .even it was for 3secs.. im finally sastisfied. =') thnks 4 listenin 2 my prayer my beloved allah swt. .it really peaceful 4 me now..finally after 4 so long i waited. . i got 2 b strong n face all dz.no matter wad. . "LiFe waS Beautiful tHen I remember tHat tiMe I knew wHat waS HAPPINESS.. Let tHe meMory LiVe aGaiN"
++ quoth Unknown at 11:32 PM |
