Dear diary..



Itz sure has been a very2 long tym since e laz tym i update maself w dz cyber world.. well tings have been a whole new world 4 me. Nightlife. wan. i tot i knew hym. im crashing. really crashing. i cant beleive u wud do such a ting 2 me. . juz hw cud u. nw. IM waiting 4 dat very dae. e confession. e story abt u. e real u. ahh.. if only u wud undstand hw i feel n read me lyk a book juz lyk hym. saiful. i guess he might be reading dz..


2 SaiFuL: Im sorry i didnt reply 2 all of ur msges.. im 2 caught up w all dz rite nw.. 4 now lets juz remain dz waeee....


juz how cud he do diz..how cud he HAVE E HEART 2.. tkper2.i will let dz tings all dis happen. n wait 4 dat very moment 2 happen. i got 2 b strong.he will cum back 2 me juz lyk all of em. y do dey start 2 appericiate n treasure me wen im no longer theirs? oh well.. i guess. its fated 4 me 2 meet em 1st b4 i got e real hym. =)
lyk muz said," U got 2 go through all e rotten apples 2 get e perfect apple which is rite @ e top of e tree" well.. i guess i got 2 agree.. itz beta 4 me 2 get hurt nw or ltr. i shall be strong. i must haf a clear conciouss..


ok finally he text me..sumtym i juz wana shout. or probably im shoutin n crying insyd but nobody listen. including hym. well i dont.i guess. lust? lolx. but i really2 love e helmet dat he gave me. e hugggsss make me wear hz clothes wen im cold..i miss dos tym bck in dos daes. .wen we witness e mesmerized scenery over @ marina barrage.itz jux omg 2 me. well.. i will be thinking of hym n dat moment weneva i go 2 marina barrage. its so wonderful.everytink was so perfect. how i wish i cud juz freeze e tym n not let all dz cuming ting 2 happen in e future. . haiz..yang2.. how cud u.. ='(

i gota 2 b strong. . once lyk asyik(ma ex),:" dea gendang kite tari,kite gendang entah dea blh tari ke tk t.." haha.. asyik2.. oh hw mch i misses u! lolxs. among all my ex, e only n only 1 dat i really2 1 2 meet is hym. as 4 saiful i finally had e chance 2 c hym.even though we didnt had e chance 2 tok. .finally my heart n mind is @ ease. 2 had e chance 2 catch e glimpse of hym. .even it was for 3secs.. im finally sastisfied. =') thnks 4 listenin 2 my prayer my beloved allah swt. .it really peaceful 4 me now..finally after 4 so long i waited. .


i got 2 b strong n face all dz.no matter wad. .

"LiFe waS Beautiful tHen
I remember tHat tiMe
I knew wHat waS
HAPPINESS..
Let tHe meMory LiVe aGaiN"