Dear Diary,

Read through all the posts. Was so happy when I got to found this blog. Read through arwah's blog...  And an.. So many many time.. ..

Time fly. Now all is gone.  Still trying to digest the thoughts..  Everyone that I knew seems to be making the exit..  There are so many ugly and beautiful things happening around me yet its not what Im searching..

Pretty much "numb" and empty.  I avoided myself from listening to music.. It just feel hurtful.  Every music remind me of the past.


"HE founded me lost and guided me." I find this very encouraging.

I still see him in my dream. Smiling at me.  Standing next to me. Always.  Insane isn't it? But it all feel very real.  And then im back to this reality.  Sigh.

I redha,sabar..  knowing that you are in a better place. How better can it get to be next to Allah? Subaha'Allah!

Hope to see you there.  :)