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Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Crisis again..
 Dear Diary, Seriously. i dont understand him. I agree w arwah. " Ure so unpedictable an !! " We r fighting lyk NOW. An: Abg miss pul Me: Take me 2 epul. i 1 hs alamat An:I dreamt of epul tadi..ngri.. Me: Wad did u dreamt abt? An: We were fighting..killing each other.. aku tao aku break epul trust.Aku tk pena mtk dea trust aku. Abg miss epul. And I know u need me to care of you Me: Not a betrayer.. I can depend on my own. n i belif datz wad my sygg 1 2 if hes ard.i fyl safer. An: Wat the fuck suria..he trusted me.. ako tk mintak dia trust ako..ako kalau nak pompan ako petik je la..ko da tk nk ako dah tk paksa ko agi pe. Ako cume concern. Me: wtf an.da tao dea treat ko mcm adik sendiri beh ko mcm gni..haish.ure juz unpredictable an.. An: N ako selalu bhasakn ko,tpi sygnye ko tk phm.masa org tu idup ko maki hamun. ko kutuk,ko tk heran pasal dier. Org da mati aru ko nk step syg2.telambat eh An: Ako unpredictable? Pompan yg unpredictable..i knw u say u tk ble.u tk nk..dlm hati nk rasa.abg cume care n concern tentang everything tat u would nd frm a man An: Knape terdiam?ape ako ckp ada btol nyer.u dun even bother abt hm wen he ard.come on! Flashbck la..ko cermin alik sume! Me:ape yg ko bhasakn aku tk phm? Gosh an..kalao aku tk concern pt arwah,knape aku sangop trn nuh sorg2 mcm pmpn glr crk 2 tmpt nk dpt kn dea?? Y wud i go 2 amk n crk uma aru dea! y wud i lyk gosh. no use talking nw dat itx over. . .I need a man lyk saiful. 2 b protected n equal under his arm.nt 2 b taken advantage n run over. An:sbab thing over r ko pelu tany diri ko sndri, wen thing da over wat 4 u care.org idop tk kesah.dh tk ada everything nk tau.telambat suria.everything is too late Me: gosh! wad do i haf 2 care siakk?? Epul hdop mati pon ttp nan aku!! Lyk helo?? Reflection?? Sape cermin sape?? Me: u r jux an outsydr. . wad i fyl 2wrds epul is juz btwn epul n maself.. Distance separate us apart bt neva was our love 2wds ech otha. dari ke matair pai la arwah.. hes e best guy dat i eva had.n 2 come 2 e point arwah ley pnjng umor lyk abg,im sure saiful n myself gona haf a happy fantastic marriage..every1 noes dat..itz juz time..oh gosh an..u duno hw it fyl..itz beyond words.. An: Ko r yg cermn n rflect..all u gave him is suffer..make him beg u 4 ur luv.dah tk ade,ko stepin hdop mati dier ngn ko..ko reflect alek.. Me: HE neva beg. Saiful is truly a gentlemen an.. U duno wad we wen thru.. 2 b precise,u dun noe wad/hw we felt 4 ech otha.. dala bro..NO ue rubbing all d. biarla adik sorg jek yg simpan pape yg telah berlaku dlm hubungan adk antare saiful..hes my eveything..biar laa..mmg da td jodoh adk nan epul pt dunie..mungkin di akhirat nanti..wallahuwalam..insyallah bang..
++ quoth Unknown at 12:24 AM Sunday, November 22, 2009
22 November 2009
 Dear Diary, Ok.. Sekejap kan..Niari da genap 2bulan arwah pergi.. Waduh.. Mcm2.. haa..i just wish everything would fall into places.. N i mean EVERYTINK cepat betol da 2bulan.. Mcm rase peristiwe nie sume happened lyk only yesterday.. oh boii.. The other day, i guess 2-3 weeks back. I went to Zamir's gathering.. Well2.. I must say, he change a lot! lyk totally a lot.. wahh..HOT! *melts* haha.. *shout-out to Zamir on 21 Novem* **Happy Bdae 2 u sweety!! ** I miss msg-ing w him.. after all dis dat keeps coming,we just stop contacting each other.. Lyk literally stop after i first started working @ dat bloddy gv plce.. And after which, he was practicing 4 his anugerah competition.. After dat, we totally stop... OMG OMG OMG!!!! MY MR Independent da kawin!!! wahhh!! Mr Independent kawin tk jempot ur Miss Independent ehyk!! haha.. Ha... Mr independent mr independent.. ku doakan rumah tanggemu bersame emy akan berkekalan hingge ke anak cucu.. amin.. sweet2..citer lame.. hahaha.. Well.. Ur Miss Independent is fighting w her life. Fighting lyk a warrior 4 the better future 2 come.. Omg.. Mr independent.. wen i talked to you or zamir,everything seems to fall into place.. So peaceful.. tranquil..But more to zamir of course. :PP It was really2 nice noeing u as my mr independent.. u show me to the other side of the world. Really 1 BIG exposure 4 me. Thanks yeaa.. =)) As for Zamir.. AWESOME!! ha.. just wish i could bring back those time again.. The feeling of comfort,safe,peaceful & happiness is just there whenever you're around.. Awesome2 same feeling w you saiful. Differences; Saiful is Saiful. Zamir is Zamir. I just don't 1 2 lose e feelin..which i noe i have. I ought to treasure it when i supposed to..i miss you zamir.. Sily.. Oh ya.. Didnt i ever share wads sily mean? Sily.. S-suria/saiful i- i l- love y- you.. Thats was one of our words..ok2 fine.. It come from u ok saiful? hehe.. ok.. here i go talking 2 myself again..haha..sily2.. ha..i miss him tellin/callin me dat. Sily.. =') May you be blessed by allah swt.. Amin.. Behind my smile is a hurting heart.Behind my laugh,Im falling apart.Look closely at me and you will see,the person I am.. isnt me.
++ quoth Unknown at 8:27 PM Monday, November 9, 2009
Obession
 Dear Diary, Babyku.. i break dwn lagi u terpkir kn u... bie.. u ingat tk u ckp how u want our wedding 2 be? I break dwn u blr tgk auntie i nyer adk kawin tadik..cute. .e new-wed.e groom nyanyi kn dis romantic2 song n dedicate 2 his bride..omg..it was so touching,i teringat pt u.. haa.. how we planned on this.. e wedding theme..gosh.. Bie............................ an perangai............AGAIN..........bie...................................i missss u muchi2!! Dis is insane. Behind my smile is a hurting heart.Behind my laugh,Im falling apart.Look closely at me and you will see,the person I am.. isnt me.
++ quoth Unknown at 1:39 AM Friday, November 6, 2009
Already gone
I didnt know u kept a diary which is all bout me.. Im surprised saiful.. To found out all the little things dat u made 4 me n just kept all 2 urself.. Bie.. mane alamat tanah perkuburan u bie.. knaper sume tknk blg i.. Lia tktao..nan an perangai mcm gni.. I cant reach farish n uncle..Y everything n everyone sume mcm gni.. Pwecious.. I miss all ur advise,encouragement,ur nag!! everything about YOU! Bie.. take me with you.. Why do you have to leave me lyk dis..omg..i just need you.. Behind my smile is a hurting heart.Behind my laugh,Im falling apart.Look closely at me and you will see,the person I am.. isnt me
++ quoth Unknown at 11:26 AM |
