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Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Syed Muhd Saiful..
 Dear Diary.. Niari..22nd September 2009..1am.. Officially..Saiful da tgalkn aku..untuk selame-lamenyer.. :'''( aku kehlgan seseorg yg aku sesgt aku cintai dan kasihi..mule2 ibu..now him..ya allah.. Dis year has been really3 a challenging n tough year 4 me..mcm2 aku diuji..kawan,keluarge n saiful..haishh..4 a moment aku ingt aku n saiful ader peluang..4 a moment saiful berjaye menambat ati aku alek 4 ages dea cube..4 a moment aku terase saat2 aku bersame dea..4 a moment aku rase aku btl2 nk dea kembali..n now..dea tgalkn aku..aku tkle terime dgn pemergiaan dea..diam tanpe berite.. tibe2 mcm gni..saiful...:''( it really hurt to keep hurting u..haishh.. aku ingat lagi kate2 dea..all e poems.. knaper saiful uat suria mcm gni.. :'''( now.. i da tkder sape2 lgy 2 tell n share everytink n anythink w..no more me hearing bucuk2 muchi2 ranful n many more.. Bie.. sunyi bie..btl2 sunyi..now when everyone turn their back towards me.i da tkder tmpt g nk bergantong bie..i haf noone to turn to.. it hurt a lot pwecious.. u sorg yg btl2 knl i..secare zahir dan batin.. haiiiishh.. Lao i dpt penganti i tktao u.. U selalu dlm doa i.. I rindu u..I tk sangke u pergi dgn cpt u..our plans..e house..e rides..e holidays.. everytink.. All bout us kn? husby ingt dat song?? all e song dat we used to listen.hah..husby..aha..hiashhh..u la racun u la penawar i.. u.. tell me how 2 move on bie? I tao i blh..tpi susahh u.. 6 tahun u kte da knl..u tao kn? hw hard it is? Hw much u n i tried..n how much u n i keep coming back 2 ech other?? Its really impssible 4 us 2 b enemy kn?? e most jealousy..aha..cute. i loike e wae u feel jealous everytime d laki2 nk mtk knl2 nan i..ahha..i miss our gadoh over this.. how much u wud vent ur "anger" n sulked..n u juz cant helped it to pujok i alek..ahah..i miss all dat saiful..i reaally2 do..(if u were reading dis,i noe u wud b smiling lyk NOW n text me immediately n say weikz!! lolxs..haishh..nomre now) Now u n ibu tkder di sisi i..mcmner u? No more confess msges in e mid of 2-3am.no more cenyum2 n all dat..haishh saiful..u tell me how m i supposed to live my life?? Sailor n e sailing.. haissshh.. i tk pnh blg u date yg i tk pnh luper is 16,14,1 n now 22..how much i lyk 22 n it turned out 2 be diz bie..tradegy..Im really running into faded memories..U..i harap kite dpt bertemu di alam c2..u..tangisan bulan madu..mcmner cerite 2 mcm g2 la i rase tgh berlaku antare u n i..lyk how he treat his wife..is lyk exactly how ure treating me..pape pon keperitan hubungan kite nie..biarlah i simpan antare u dgn i.. I tktao u..susah..i miss everytink bout u..everytink lil things..haaa..saiful..knaper kite arus bertemu dan knper perpisahan kiter berakhir mcm gni? Seandainyer i dpt penganti..I wun fall 4 e bad guy..Nie kn u nk? u uro i jge2 ati2..biar dea jge i aik2 n u look frm far kn syg? dis is our promise kn? hiasshh..mcmner u..its so empty..i tktao lao i blh ker tk u.. i mtk maaf..maafkn segale kesalahan dan kesilapan i..halalkn mkn dan minum i..Ampun kn i saiful..I tk pena menyesal mengenali diri u..I bahagie teramat sgt.. Pemergiaan u btl2 sunyi..haishh..ya allah.. Moge roh u dicucuhi rahmat..Dan dekat disamping allah s.w.t..Ko akn sentiase didldm doaku..Assalamualaikum..
++ quoth Unknown at 2:15 AM |
